Words & Writing

Since moving to Norfolk writing has become an important creative outlet. Unfortunately the English teacher at my secondary modern thought my form was too poor to do English literature. As a result for many years I thought I was not up to the task.  For my solo show ‘Unstill Lives’ I exhibited extracts from journals and sketch books along side the pictures.  I’ve done this private writing for many years but when the reaction to the show included a lot of encouragement for the text I started to think seriously about publishing.

My first project was a guide to antiques, a ‘Collectors Guide to Inks, Glue Pots & Blacking Bottles 1750-1920’.  This will be published in 2006 I hope but it has led to my becoming editor of a collectables magazine called BBR.

I also attended two courses facilitated by Patrick Gale in France for gay writers at the Lotus Tree run by Lance Price & James Proctor .  As a result of this my first novel, a children’s’ book, is currently seeking a publisher.

Narrative and words have featured strongly in my art and re-engaging with this has bred new directions that are likely to feature in my next exhibition.  A short prose piece written on the Lotus Tree course, with the help of what Patrick called a ‘memory trigger’, is below.

The Sugar Pine

Making a path using a whippy stick to cut down the nettles - just as he had as a child - he looked for the partly destroyed paths of encaustic tiles. They had wound through the conservatory that had once been attached to the grand house. Between the heaps of rubble and newly blown down branches he kicked aside the detritus to reveal the grey, cream and maroon patterns. How easily the excavations of his childhood were brought into view again; a few minutes of pushing aside a thin leaf mould of ten years shows you the true picture of time. The blown heaps of autumn leaves, big enough to play in, to collect in huge drifts, melt and compress to the wafer thickness of a single insignificant year. In this ghost garden the 80 years since the house had been demolished were represented by maybe two centimetres. Nonetheless on such a thin layer huge colonies of yellow celandines, white wood anemones and blue bells had grown up like flowering memories. Almost undisturbed they had slowly spread to fill the triangle of land squeezed between the adjacent school and the park, a purposeless corner kept secret by accident of local authority acquisition and a six foot wire mesh fence. Children, like squirrels or rabbits, always found a way in - as indeed had he - squeezing through secret holes behind bushes. Today there was no need. The storm had sent bough after branch crashing onto it; whole trees had fallen outwards as if spilling the wood into the park beyond. He had once imagined the wood, animated and moving, doing something like this: a tide of ivy and wilderness creeping out to strangle, engulf and smother the hated semis and bungalows on its boundary. The storm had produced an effect more like an explosion. Throwing down the younger plantation oak trees that now spread in a fan towards the houses. It was as if the wood, so full of ghosts, unable to contain them any longer, like a forgotten volcano suddenly erupting, had blown apart.

Moving off from the ruinous foundation of the house he passed down half submerged steps to what had once been a wide terrace. A photograph he had seen of a horse and trap standing in the drive was taken here. The middle aged lady in crinoline bustle dress and her driver looking towards the camera would have seen a fashionable small arboretum. Ordinance Survey maps show a variety of tree pictograms for deciduous and coniferous plants to indicate mixed woodland. Those on a map of this small patch might actually be the individual specimen trees like pointers on a treasure map. In his childhood they had been friends, characters he talked to. The Monkey Puzzle was still there. Its peculiar habit, with only a few spiny stems right at the top, gave little resistance to the storm winds and had saved it. Several of the old specimen oaks still stood as well. Having been grown with the space to spread their roots they held firm; but their canopy was shredded to nothing and lay everywhere amongst the newer birches, an alarming, strangely green, autumn. The massive cedar of Lebanon had not survived. Like a fallen Tyrannosaurus Rex it had crashed down into the surrounding younger wood further from the terrace. Ripping trees apart and tearing off limbs, leaving ragged ugly stumps, like arms blown off. He climbed onto its fallen carcass that pointed deeper towards other victims and walked along the length towards his injured friend.